Explaining Things So I Can Confuse You

I’m too low to go up
I’m too high to fall off
I’m sharing to be leftover
I’m wasting to miss
Slowly so I can fit
gently to not forgive

I’m studying to know how to ignore
I’m eating so I can vomit

I’m explaining to you
To confuse you
confusing you
so I can make things clear
with dazzling light to blind you
I’m going blind
To be able to guide you

Gently so I can rip
closed eye to see you better
happily, so I can cry
Desperately to be patient
Affectionate to hurt
Slowly not to delay
running afterlife to be able to die
I’m saying goodbye so I can come back.

Tom Zé